life just cant get any better with the Lord.

i had an arguement with God today.
i was really really disappointed by what God has for me initially.
then i pondered over WHY.
i asked Him over and over again.

BUT you know, God's plan is always so BIG.
well, today we had a match against HCI and we lost marginally. SO CLOSE.
IF i just had that little bit more of power, WE would have won. 21-23,21-15,18-21.
i was EVEN SAD-er when our mixed doubles won the 1st set and LOST the last 2.
i was so so so mad at God, for He is the only one who know my DREAMS!yet,he let such things happened.

THEN finally, He spoke while i was walking towards the mrt and during quiet time.
He said that He didnt want me and the team to WIN, he wanted us to LEARN. With understanding, sucess will come sooner or later.
He want the Team to get closer to each other-more united as a team. He also want ME to STRIVE ON. He knew if i had won this match, i'll get complacent AGAIN. AND of course to apply that to other areas of my life and OTHER'S life.

I knelt down when i reached home. and asked,"why,God WHY?"
He didnt answer so i went to do quiet time,hoping to recieve some revelation.
and there it was, Luke 11:9-13,titled "keep asking, seeking and knocking"
so yup, i know why now. God want to train my determination so that i would improve and improve, physically and mentally!
This is a war. War against evil. and it is not going to be easy.
BUT i will go on.


to arron, thank you buddy, for sharing with me and also hearing my opinons. You're really sensible and im so glad that you really quit smoking. =)
through this competition,
i've grown,yet another level of maturity.