WOAH.
its just so overwhelming.
i've been standing right in front of the current of God and that SHEER force just " RAAMP" on my face.
it's time for revelations.
i didnt plan to blog at all but, i guess i know WHY i've been laid back and slacking these few days already.
God IS SO BIG, i just cannot imagine His plans were. i just feel this NEED to BLOG, because it could just be a pinnacle of MY LIFE.

yea, these few days i hadnt been engaged in PRODUCTIVE work nor USEFUL conversations.yea, my mouth hadnt been acting normally and i DONT KNOW why i keep wanting to say negative things. plain BAD. FLAGRANTLY bad. PERNICIOUSLY BAD. ahh. its just too dirty to be typed out in actual words. then again, its not so detrimental. OPPS.i know, im using WEIRD english words that should not be appearing on blogs. haha.okay nevermind, back to what i want to say.

GOD, wanted me to be INSPIRED once again. its gotta be His plans. He knows i've been DOWN,though not showing, but deep down, He knows im kinda demoralised and slack. I've been struggling, trying to get back the hyper and inquistive ME. the one who thirst of knowledge. i tell you, its an addiction approved by God. haha.im indulging in it! i series of events!

-theres cyber wellness talk,make me realise what should i do on blog and WHAT i USED to do and WAS A VICTIM of those remarks,YEARS BACK, not virtually,but IN REAL LIFE. THAT was my lowest point. i just wished i knew God earlier then.But now, i've decided to let go of my past, REALLY ALL. even those grudges i bore on RV. but i refuse to look on the dark side, for those who light up a room is wise;but those who curse at darkness is a fool. and yes its a bible verse. and at the same time, im trying to tell ALL NON-CHRISTIANS that God is a 100% good God. have faith in Him.

-oh and this leads to the next revelation. SKEPTISM. i realised that RV system sort of produced a cynical mindset. i was subjected to it. john is. woei jye is. but im not now, cause Heart of God church changed that! so its THEM w/o me in that group. Mr soh's very cynical too. you know, sometimes its our skeptism that leads to SO MUCH mistrust and doubts, tearing relationships apart. These few months had made me learn how to trust others,myself,family and of course God. yes, i can confide in God but if i take no action, what can God do? God is looking for people who DO NOT GIVE UP. everybody FAILS. but the ones who never never never gives up, who say and actual carry out their thoughts, will suceed. whats the use of comparing? whats the use of booasting? whats the use of having your ego inflated? whats the use talking?
grades are superficial. they are merely an indicator of how much you have learnt. i was disappointed at my chemistry grade. but theres a lesson learnt.

-i told my mentee that what does it mean to truely learn. its not about grades. and that mistakes dont matter. as long as you DONT make the SAME mistakes again and again, and you understand how to stop the mistake, THATS OKAY. but what makes the difference is when you are able to understand and apply.practise can cover up that weakness.
--this is my OWN revelation. ONLY when you are able to handle your own studies then you can go on to learn more things. DO NOT be stucked in pure academics.so i have to bother to identify the problem,then work on it. the 1st thing is to even BOTHER.get pass that stage and you'll learn something.

then i was thinking of singapore's education system. was the A lowered because it is to provide us with more room for improvement? i really feel so.anyway, i got
physics- A
chemistry -A
Maths-C
Geography- C
w/o gp. and that was the overall grade for term 2 and 3. i wasnt over the moon. nor i was depressed. i felt normal. and i know i have to improve my learning attitude for maths and geography. maybe chemistry.
thats about it. i might have left out something, but i think i really shouldnt blog anymore. cause its getting late and this always cause me to be really tired the next day. QUITE BAD.
oh ya. i've upcoming plans thats really exciting.
-tee shirts for class
-tee shirts for PW(opss!im going to do it when im free-er!theres too many things to do!ARGH.haha)
-Desert Shop opening.
-Physics olympiad.
-Promos.->i can apply and learn!WOOSH.
-japanese tests
-naruto anime(oh i forgot to talk about this. the anime contributed to the revelation too, as it was about how this girl improved so much and she was not willing to give up at all costs,even losing her life.)
-MAY take H3 subject!

i hope theres more to come!

BE INSPIRED!

Sometimes,we got to sacrifice. whether the consequences may look dire. but if just follow the values of Christianity, nothing that bad will happen. cause your problems can never be bigger than God. THINK, is God trying to telling you something? is it an area of your life God wants you to change? are you resisting God? your problems are God's problems and he creates the problems. overcome and receive.
thats why the revelations of the bible is at the end of the bible!

oh the sacrificing part was inspired by 5 people you meet in heaven! mitch albom is the writer!i think hes Christian!cause his book really had some values of Christianity.

well well well,
talking so much i guess that i am once again, really inspired.

im overcoming the worst tribulation of my life, bit by bit! its really tough, but im TOUGHER. devil. go BACK TO HELL.

ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS.
i'm going for some actions NOW.
see ya guys. BE MOVTIVATED.

yo alicia, i just hope that you will read this cause im going to talk abit about today's meeting that you have missed!

it's about leadership and how we should organise our lives so that we can have more capacity to do work!then we would have no qualms to be a high flier in school,in church and at work!because the training really starts from our age!
today's sermon is really a suprise cause i really didnt expect something like that.and BIMBOS jiehui and josh thought i dont know where is the meeting!I WAS LOCKED DOWNSTAIRS for a freaking dno how long.before sam rescued us!


well, i really shouldnt be blogging at this hour cause its time for me to sleep.BUT i want to cause my blog is lacking with VISUALS!so here are the pictures!

I LOVE THE NEW CHURCH. and yea got discipled AGAIN,cause im LATE.i just cant force myself to leave house promptly! yeap its MY FAULT for being late and thats really a bad habit.i guess i really have to change it.
I think that one of these days, somebody is going to talk behind my back.i just know it somehow lo.its a feeling and God's been telling me to be HUMBLE HUMBLE HUMBLE. you know the word " humility" keeps ringing in my head. i think i really really need to take heed if not something bad is going to happen. guess one of it would be stop telling people i got exempted from physics.haha anyway, theres another which always make me late for church is because of its distance.it always turn me off when i think, SIAN 2 hours of travelling time is wasted again. this mindset just get stuck in my mind. the reason why i chose JJC was because of its distance and when i dont see that im travelling LESS, i just whine.OH MAN. I REALLY REALLY HAVE TO CHANGE THIS.
to be honest with all of you guys, i HAD BEEN thinking of negative things,even to leadership. but i dare say that i've overcome it! i now know how NOT to be influenced by negative things.yeap and its another obstacle GONE!

with KONG before we got GUAI LAN-ED by some security guards
PEILIN! the day at ARAB eating JUICY chicken!then met her on saturday and my friends thought that shes PREGNANT.HAHA
GRAND OPENING!just wished that yilun was there!but he was so hostile and fierce, LUN if you see this, please say that you would want to come OUR NEW church okay?theres really lots of place to hang out in!
WITH PAN AND POK! AND THE GOH FAMILY!
GO GO POWER RANGERS!
JI HUI's FINGERS.she must be busy doing her stuff now!haha she got draged to LAKESIDE.LOL
EMO EMO !
DRAFT 2 is finally completed! i think i used more than 24 hours. JJ128,PLEASEEE THANK ME.

i just feel like slacking today.

tv is now showing super gross mr world 2007.i think im hotter can. HAHAHHA( PLEASE LAUGH PLEASE) well,actually im quite sad that i cant go church to help out cause i have a mad 42hours of study rule!AH. but i think i dont need lah hor.hahah

just now theres this cool show, LIGHTNING: BOLTS OF DESTRUCTION. rather cool,but i dont know if such a senario would really happen! but its really an application of what we have learnt!physics+geography. actually what really intrigue me in all the studying are: electricity,magnetism,gravity,chemical reactions like qualitative analysis,manipulation of substances,acids,colour changes, explosions, landforms,glaciers, plants, volcanoes,earthquakes. so yeap.this is why i love to study.because these are really phenomenons!they just stir a feeling in me!

i dont know if i should really take up H3 physics. well, i mean i've never been that smart before.it's really the gift from God. but i never treat these gifts for granted!and i really really must learn to be humble even though these acheievments are really minute in this world.


after a few hours of struggling with inertia, God fired up my engine once again. through FRIENDSTER. haha. cos my cousin's birthday is coming and my mind is working again! then it led me to new ideas to put into project work. God is always leading my life. and pastor sy's sermon lingers in my head. its really good.

woah, theres so much so much.
but i guess action speaks louder than words.
off to do work!

Your words speak louder than this world!

hello everyone!

its been weeks since i last bloged!
as always,theres so many things thats going around me and i hardly have time for blogging.im really serious.today is the day!and i've been enjoying today so far thanks to NARUTO.its a REAL BLAST.and i just had a fabulous day teaching my pri 4 cousin.its really meaningful to teach and see how they progress,get to learn more.its very very meaningful.i LOVE TO STUDY,i LOVE TO PLAY GAMES, I LOVE to TEACH, i LOVE AND I LOVE EVERYTHING IN THIS WORLD.i find out what am i really going to do the next time.

woah,its overwhelming and i love this kinda feeling rather than being lost and misguided, doing all the wrong things at the wrong time.

back to content!

- its been a week of total mugging and i love OUR NEW CHURCH,its so awesome and you can hardly believe that its a church!cool and happening,what else can i say!
-but i thing thats ben bugging me is that i've not been doing sports all this while and im kinda injured when i didnt work out.its rubbish.my toe is injured and its really huge.im lazy to upload the picture,maybe next time.today is my sister's birthday and coincidentally,peck hwang's mum passed away today. i feel really perplexed,but i just hope that we'll see her in heaven.

God is really very suprising,always doing unexpected things while teaching me at the same time.my life's really getting more and more dramatic.

my pal just left s'pore to macau,giving justin and i all the badminton thingy.i shal keep my faith that He will see me through new trials!2nd draft of written report is soon due.results of common test will come out tmr.
life's getting more interesting yet taxing.
BUT with GOD,

i know im going to make it.

now im going to watch "music and lyrics" then prepare the ice cream cake!
and everyone should go watch "disturbia" cause its really disturbing.
cause it scared the hell out of me!

more to come!
updates!

God's bigger than i am!
PSALMS 45:4,
"And in Your majesty ride prosperously because of truth,humility,and righteousness:And Your right hand shall teach You awesome things."
humility is what i have to learn.