WOAH.
its just so overwhelming.
i've been standing right in front of the current of God and that SHEER force just " RAAMP" on my face.
it's time for revelations.
i didnt plan to blog at all but, i guess i know WHY i've been laid back and slacking these few days already.
God IS SO BIG, i just cannot imagine His plans were. i just feel this NEED to BLOG, because it could just be a pinnacle of MY LIFE.

yea, these few days i hadnt been engaged in PRODUCTIVE work nor USEFUL conversations.yea, my mouth hadnt been acting normally and i DONT KNOW why i keep wanting to say negative things. plain BAD. FLAGRANTLY bad. PERNICIOUSLY BAD. ahh. its just too dirty to be typed out in actual words. then again, its not so detrimental. OPPS.i know, im using WEIRD english words that should not be appearing on blogs. haha.okay nevermind, back to what i want to say.

GOD, wanted me to be INSPIRED once again. its gotta be His plans. He knows i've been DOWN,though not showing, but deep down, He knows im kinda demoralised and slack. I've been struggling, trying to get back the hyper and inquistive ME. the one who thirst of knowledge. i tell you, its an addiction approved by God. haha.im indulging in it! i series of events!

-theres cyber wellness talk,make me realise what should i do on blog and WHAT i USED to do and WAS A VICTIM of those remarks,YEARS BACK, not virtually,but IN REAL LIFE. THAT was my lowest point. i just wished i knew God earlier then.But now, i've decided to let go of my past, REALLY ALL. even those grudges i bore on RV. but i refuse to look on the dark side, for those who light up a room is wise;but those who curse at darkness is a fool. and yes its a bible verse. and at the same time, im trying to tell ALL NON-CHRISTIANS that God is a 100% good God. have faith in Him.

-oh and this leads to the next revelation. SKEPTISM. i realised that RV system sort of produced a cynical mindset. i was subjected to it. john is. woei jye is. but im not now, cause Heart of God church changed that! so its THEM w/o me in that group. Mr soh's very cynical too. you know, sometimes its our skeptism that leads to SO MUCH mistrust and doubts, tearing relationships apart. These few months had made me learn how to trust others,myself,family and of course God. yes, i can confide in God but if i take no action, what can God do? God is looking for people who DO NOT GIVE UP. everybody FAILS. but the ones who never never never gives up, who say and actual carry out their thoughts, will suceed. whats the use of comparing? whats the use of booasting? whats the use of having your ego inflated? whats the use talking?
grades are superficial. they are merely an indicator of how much you have learnt. i was disappointed at my chemistry grade. but theres a lesson learnt.

-i told my mentee that what does it mean to truely learn. its not about grades. and that mistakes dont matter. as long as you DONT make the SAME mistakes again and again, and you understand how to stop the mistake, THATS OKAY. but what makes the difference is when you are able to understand and apply.practise can cover up that weakness.
--this is my OWN revelation. ONLY when you are able to handle your own studies then you can go on to learn more things. DO NOT be stucked in pure academics.so i have to bother to identify the problem,then work on it. the 1st thing is to even BOTHER.get pass that stage and you'll learn something.

then i was thinking of singapore's education system. was the A lowered because it is to provide us with more room for improvement? i really feel so.anyway, i got
physics- A
chemistry -A
Maths-C
Geography- C
w/o gp. and that was the overall grade for term 2 and 3. i wasnt over the moon. nor i was depressed. i felt normal. and i know i have to improve my learning attitude for maths and geography. maybe chemistry.
thats about it. i might have left out something, but i think i really shouldnt blog anymore. cause its getting late and this always cause me to be really tired the next day. QUITE BAD.
oh ya. i've upcoming plans thats really exciting.
-tee shirts for class
-tee shirts for PW(opss!im going to do it when im free-er!theres too many things to do!ARGH.haha)
-Desert Shop opening.
-Physics olympiad.
-Promos.->i can apply and learn!WOOSH.
-japanese tests
-naruto anime(oh i forgot to talk about this. the anime contributed to the revelation too, as it was about how this girl improved so much and she was not willing to give up at all costs,even losing her life.)
-MAY take H3 subject!

i hope theres more to come!

BE INSPIRED!

Sometimes,we got to sacrifice. whether the consequences may look dire. but if just follow the values of Christianity, nothing that bad will happen. cause your problems can never be bigger than God. THINK, is God trying to telling you something? is it an area of your life God wants you to change? are you resisting God? your problems are God's problems and he creates the problems. overcome and receive.
thats why the revelations of the bible is at the end of the bible!

oh the sacrificing part was inspired by 5 people you meet in heaven! mitch albom is the writer!i think hes Christian!cause his book really had some values of Christianity.

well well well,
talking so much i guess that i am once again, really inspired.

im overcoming the worst tribulation of my life, bit by bit! its really tough, but im TOUGHER. devil. go BACK TO HELL.

ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS.
i'm going for some actions NOW.
see ya guys. BE MOVTIVATED.